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Hawthorn chapter 4
My dream this night is the most pleasantly unpleasant I've ever had the, well, displeasure of having. I just met Derek and I keep telling my imagination that I'm not gay, but my mind doesn't seem to be paying attention to those facts. I'm starting to feel like a total fanboy.
I don't think I need to poison your innocent minds with the details of this dream.
I wake up with a sense of dread and have to assure myself that I'm not a sinner anymore.
I shower and get ready for another day in HellI mean Forks, Washington. I make some toast to take with me. It's raining outside once again, so I grab an umbrella on my way out the door. I have a bit of trouble starting the truck this morning, but I still get to school on time. Later than on my first day, but on time nevertheless.
I walk to Olivia's locker, and people are whispering about me as I pass. I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. 'What could they possibly be talking about?'
When I get to the locker, Olivia and Grace are
You Know You're Obsessed WhenYou know you're obsessed with SHINee when
1. You will never look at frogs, chickens, cows, raccoons or tigers the same way EVER AGAIN
2. You don't shut up about SHINee Fighting
3. You click the Replay button on a YouTube video, hoping it will take you to the SHINee Replay official video
4. You argue endlessly with people over whether Key's hair in the Lucifer video is awesome or horrible
5. You get distracted in Chemistry every time you have to do work that mentions Oxygen
6. You laugh madly every time you see a picture of Spock
7. And you call him "Minho" instead of Spock
8. You cried when Jonghyun was diagnosed with swine flu
9. And again when Onew was diagnosed
10. And again when Taemin was diagnosed
11. You giggle in the middle of Spanish when you see "Amigo" in your textbook
12. Listening to SHINee is part of your daily routine
13. Someone says, "flaming," you don't think of trolls on the internet or gay men, you think of Flaming Charisma Minho
14. You smil
Hawthorn chapter 3
My heart beats loud in my ears, ba-bom.
It keeps pounding against my chest, ba-bom.
'No, I'm not gay.'
'I can't be.'
'It's gross, unnatural, sick and wrong.'
'It's just not possible that God could damn me to Hell this way. I can't be gay.'
Ba-bom, ba-bom, ba-bom
'Was I doomed to this fate for having my surname? Was I destined to be "forsaken" from the start? '
Ba-bom, ba-bom, ba-bom, ba-bom
'Please Lord, no! '
Ba-bom, ba-bom, ba-bom, ba-bom, ba-bom
'I'm not gay! I swear I'm not! I can't be! It's not possible! I'm not, I'm not, I'm not!'
'I never felt like this towards any guy before Derek.'
As soon as I think that, I come crashing out of my thoughts. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm suddenly admitting to feeling something for this guy I don't even really know! Stupid hypothalamus! Stop screwing with my endocrine system! Leave my hormon
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